Abbey is 7...

Isnt it funny how life can get going so fast and you just find yourself going with the flow that you wake up one morning and find your baby is turning 7?? It felt like yesterday that my beautiful 4pound 5 oz bundle of joy came into this world way too early. I vividly remember laying in the hospital for 10 weeks prior to today 7 years ago miserable and feeling sorry for myself thinking geez im missing out on summer and time with my other baby girl Maddie. She was only 2 at the time. I remember only being able to get up to go the bathroom if even that and having no one to talk to for days. Through it all though Craig would go to work all day, get off work get Maddie from the sitter, make dinner and bring it up to me in the hospital. He usually grilled something like chicken and potatoes and corn on the cob. He would stay for a while and then Maddie would get out of hand and he would have to leave and I would cry knowing I was going to be alone. Alone contemplating what would happen to our baby if she was born this day or the next day. Each day was another day down to her bening able to make it. My water broke at 24 weeks. This how it started. I made some friends who were in similar situations there. All of us in bed. we laughed and cried together. I was the last to have my baby. I delivered Abigail Paige on July 24th 2001 at 34 weeks. She had to have oxygen amd a feeding tube. She was sooo tiny I thought I would break her if I moved funny. She wasnt eating well from me so I had to bottle feed her. along with the feeding tube. For 2 weeks I would be there all day with her and then have to return home without my beautiful baby and I would cry and cry until the next day I could get up and go be with her again. She finally came home on August 8th 2001. I swear since then life has passed us by. Its amazing how certain things can be placed up on a shelf and forgotten for a while and other things seem to take control of your mind and whats important. Craig and I went through a period that wasnt so nice. Maddie started to act out, life just got bad. I hated my job and just was lost. I had this hole in my life that no matter what I bought or who I conversed with it never seem to get better! That is until one day when we hit rock bottom and God spoke to me telling me to turn it around. take my hands off that wheel and let him take over. Its been almost 4 years now and life is awesome. Craig and I have the best relationship and love each other more that I thought we ever could. My kids are lovers of Christ and even my dog is behaving!! Go figure. God works on animals too! LOL. I can serenly now look back on the days since Abbeys birth and remember the wonderful things that Craig and I shared and the hard moments we made it through that really made us stronger. I can look today at the miracle of my youngest daughter making it into this world and see that Gods work was there all along even when we werent seeing him. For that I eternally will thank God for watching over me and my family when were not sure of where we were going! He is an awesome God and a forgiving God. Hard to believe its been 7 years since life took a turn. To one of my 2 beautiful babies, Happy Birthday! And to Craig, thank you for being there for me and loving me then when I couldnt see what was right in front of me. God definantley brought you to me and our girls!